New Mom!

So as you all know I was pregnant and expecting my first child, a baby girl. I officially gave birth on 4/15/18 at 8:09am via C-section. It was a very rocky road for me during labor and delivery as things did not go as planned at all. I have thoroughly been enjoying being a mother! No one could have ever prepared me for the instant love and adoration that I would have for my baby girl.

Most of you know that my due date was 4/6/18, but clearly my little girl did not get that memo that she was supposed to vacate the premises of my womb on that date or at least 4 days afterwards. I went in for an induction on 4/12/18 at 7am, one day after my 30th birthday, and boy was that an experience for me. The first method they tried I thought was going to work and it had to stay in for 12 hours, it was supposed to soften my cervix so that I could begin to dilate, and that was an epic fail because I still had not started dilating and I did not feel any contractions at all. The next thing they tried was giving me the Pitocin, which is supposed to make you dilate and start contractions quickly. My doctor wanted to start me on the Pitocin slowly, so instead of increasing the dose every 15 minutes she increased it every 2 hours. The rest of Thursday and all day Friday I was hooked up to an IV getting fluids and the Pitocin. Suffice it to say, that was also an epic fail. The max dose is 20ml and I didn’t start feeling minor contractions until I had gotten up to 16ml of the Pitocin. When I was checked to see if I had dilated any early Saturday morning, I was still 1cm. This was quite disappointing for me. So my doctor decided to take me off the IV for a few hours so that I could move around and then start the induction process over again. So this time I started out on the Pitocin at 9ml and every 15-20 minutes a nurse came to increase it 2ml. This time around I started feeling the contractions and by the time I got to 14ml, I needed pain meds to deal with the pain. My water finally broke! By Saturday evening when my doctor checked me and I was still 1cm she suggested that I get an epidural to relax my cervix in hopes that it would help me to start dilating more. She swept my membranes and that got me to 3cm dilated. So I got the epidural, which was something that I did not want at all. I wanted a natural birth with no epidural. Clearly that was not in the cards for me. So by early Sunday morning when my doctor came and checked and I was still a measly 3cm she gave me the look and said to me “Honey you’re still 3cm, we need to schedule a c-section now”. At that point I did not protest at all. My body was completely tired. The medicine that you put in the epidural did not work so they had to use anesthesia.

My baby girl was born at 8:09am. Because of my own complications it took me a while to be able to finally see my baby for the first time. They wheeled me into the NICU in front of her warmer to be able to look at her. It was love at first sight and she was so beautiful to me! Since being home with my baby it has been a learning curve. Getting to know the signs for when she is hungry, needs attention and getting the hang of breastfeeding. She is only 16 days old and she already has a big personality and our bond is strong and will only get stronger. I absolutely could not imagine being anything else but her mother. I never knew how much I would love being a mom nor how natural it would be to me. I love when she is awakes and she smiles at me when I talk and kiss her. She sometimes even kisses me back. She is my forever love! I have never experience this type of love before!

Even though things did not go as planned for my labor and delivery, I would not change anything at all. All the time, pain, and worry was all worth it. The fact that my baby girl is here, healthy and beautiful is all that I could ever ask for. I will love her with all my heart, teach her, cherish her and protect her until the day that I die.

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One Day

One day I will find you 

For I have been searching all my life

One day I will finally be happy

Despite all the misery in my life

One day I will walk with fingers interlocked

On a nice beautiful day with you 

One day… 

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What Would You Do With $10 Million?

So lately a lot of people have been talking about what they would do if given 10 million dollars. Most people just want to buy a lot of material things. Yet there are some that don’t. So when pondering this question it took me about a good 30 minutes to come up with just about everything I would do with that amount of money.

So first thing first, I would put $2 million in a trust for my daughter. I would build my dream home and get my dream car. I would invest in my jewelry business so that I could reach more people and make more money. I would start my nonprofit organizations: One would be for women and children who are victims of domestic violence, helping them get the resources they need and to stay safe, and rebuild their lives; The other would be for underprivileged boys and girls to help them with staying focused in school, getting into college, learning about credit, learning housekeeping skills, money management, and having good mentors to help them stay off the streets and incarcerated and on a productive path in life. I would put money in savings. I would also invest in a business or two. Lastly, I would start a clothing line for children.

That is what I would do with all that money. I would secure a good future for my daughter and myself. I would build a legacy for her to continue after I have passed away from this earth.

What would you do with $10 million?!

What I Need

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That is what I need

To be free

To be me

To let go of my worries

Cast away my fears

 

Lifes’ daily stressors

Taking a toll on me

I feel like I’m drowning

I can barely grasp for air

I feel lost

I feel unheard

 

If I could escape

This is where I would be

Somewhere that I can have peace

Relax my mind

And experience tranquility

 

 

 

 

30 Day Challenge – Day 8

Day 8: Something you’re currently worrying about

I am currently worrying about whether my health will get better. At the end of last year I had some very serious issues and I was diagnosed with colitis and a few times I had c-diff. It’s basically inflammation of the colon. I was in and out the hospital for weeks. I have had to change my eating habits and I occasionally have flare ups. But just recently I had another health scare but they told me that I had acute bronchitis, which is inflammation of the bronchial tubes that carry air to the lungs. I just want to be healthy, happy and live a long life without complications to my health.

Happiness

  
I truly love what I do for a living. I am an in home behavior therapist for children on the autism spectrum. I love seeing the progress that my clients make! It brings me great joy to know that I am helping these children and their families. It can be a tough job at times but I wouldn’t trade it for the world! 

  

Update on The Daniel Plan

So as I said previously in my post “The Daniel Plan” I would give you guys an update once I started reading it. Well, after reading only 3 1/2 chapters I have made the decision to make the lifestyle change. I know that it will be really good for my mind, body and soul. I will not only be healthier, more focused in life but it will also draw me closer into the presence of God; hence the faith portion of the book. I feel confident in making the choice to live this lifestyle. 

There are 5 essentials to the Daniel Plan which makes it not just a book that helps you to lose weight or get healthy. The 5 essentials are: 

1. Faith

2. Food

3. Fitness

4. Focus

5. Friends

As I go through each of these chapters I will give my thoughts on each and share them with you. So make sure to watch for the posts on these 5 essentials of the Daniel Plan. I hope that I can inspire or help someone to change their lifestyle, in order to be at your best!

In Reality

You . . .
You give me this feeling that I just can’t run away from
No matter how hard I try to deny it and I do
When you call, regardless of when, I come
Your like a drug and I need a fix of you
The way you send my body into overdrive
With just one look, one touch, one kiss
You know just what to do and thats no lie
You . . .
You make my entire body burn like its been set to fire
With just the simplest thought of you
There is no denying this passion and desire
Thats is inherently between us two
Yet Im constantly running from that feeling you give me
But in reality you want me and I want you